I love my family and friends. Ehem. My name is Ummi. I'm twenty. Currently studying Chemistry 2nd year in University of Manchester. If you wanna ask or tell me something, do click the button below my photo :)
What happen between u n ur love one??
Hey! :) Sorry. It’s quite personal for me to answer this question here. Hope you’ll understand.
I feel like crying seeing you in hijab. tho I've seen you in kelas Agama and how we always kena perli hehehe because I was one your closest friend during your time in Perak. you may know who am I by now. seeing you and I changed towards His path making me like hugging you right now. *virtual hugs* and I love you soooo much, mak mie, yummiebiey, chocobiey, babieyyyyy! hehe love, kakak
^_^ awhhh kakak gemok! *virtual hugs* heheheh! :P i love you so much too!!! muuahh2!
i always knew that this day seeing you in hijab will come. if you're an artist, i'd be your fan. but you see, i'm your friend, therefore i'll always be the loyal supporter!
kurrr! tak nak jadi retis pun. heheh. thank you, my friend! <3
How do you know your heart is ready for change, what actually leads you to His path? And how do you managed to leave someone that you used to love?
i assume u understand bm k cause i’m going to use bahasa rojak. heheh.
what actually leads me to His path? i’m not sure if u had read one of my latest posts, mmm the one yang ada pasal sham kamikaze. cause i think i’ve somehow listed the reasons on what leads me to Him.
i was born as Muslim. and as muslim, of course we know what the do’s and the dont’s in our religion. even if we don’t practise them, kita tetap akan tau satu dua benda about our own religion kan? unless, u don’t even bother satu benda pun from what ustaz/ustazah ajar during pendidikan islam. heheh.
i must say that, my mom and my dad had given me didikan agama yang cukup and the best for me. but end up semua bgantung dekat diri sendiri jugak la whether to terima or not right? we might have terima terima terima, but we didn’t amalkan amalkan amalkan. contoh paling senang, tutup aurat.
what is tutup aurat? haaaa. go google! malas explain. heheh.
after 20 years living on this earth, i finally asked myself:
i’m a muslim. i said i believe in Allah SWT. but why do i still ingkar his arahan?
but but ummi. u do solat what? u do fasting for a month in ramadhan.
aaah. so ure saying that by solat yang wajib only and fasting for a month are enough to make u a good muslim? enough to make you go into His jannah? u sure? by not wearing hijab is good enough for that?
errrrrr. alaaa. people wearing hijab pun belum tentu masuk jannah. banyak lagi perempuan yang tak pakai tudung yang lagi baik from the one wearing hijab.
aaah. okay. i’ve heard of that. but have you heard of yang pakai tudung tu insyaAllah masuk jannah, but the one yang tak pakai, confirm2 dah tak dapat masuk jannah.
aaaahh. i’ve heard of that as well. but have u heard that Allah masukkan makhluk-Nya ke jannah with His rahmat. it doesn’t really depends on our amalan.
amboi. molek ayat. so ure saying you layak dapat His rahmat then?
those were a few dialogues between me and myself that kept on playing on my mind. heheh. i love to argue with myself. >.<
just then, i again asked myself, apa yang susah sangat nak pakai hijab ni? apa yang susah sangat nak berubah to a better Muslim ni? apa yang tahan awak daripada buat semua ni, ummi khalthom usaini? tak rasa kesian ke dekat ibu awak yang everyday berdoa for a better u? tak rasa kesian ke dekat ayah yang menanggung dosa yang bganda2 banyaknya sebab anak perempuannya yang tidak menutup aurat ni? is there anyone yang akan marah / benci if awak start bhijab ummi khalthom?
no… no…. tak ada sesiapa pun yang benci/marah. tapi. banyak yang happy and bagi support to me until one point, i cried. yes. i cried. why? sebab Allah tunjuk betapa Dia sayang dekat ummi khalthom usaini ni ha through her friends and family. i’m pretty sure Allah is happy for me as well :’) really happy.
and by started wearing hijab, i promise myself to be a better muslimah as well. bukan setakat from solat wajib+puasa sebulan tambah tutup aurat only. but you know, gali lagi banyak ilmu akhirat yang insyaAllah boleh dekatkan kita dengan Allah seboleh yang mungkin. :)
selalu jugak dengar orang kata, “alaa. later la i change. still got time what. now i wanna enjoy2 first.”
nayyy. why do u have to wait later if u can just change now? btw, are you sure u still have enough time to change? what if u die tomorrow? what if u die, now? nauzubillahi minzalik.
and the second qs. it’s quite hard for me to answer that. cause i don’t want to hurt anyone cause that anyone is still my bestfriend. :)
the only thing that i can say is, for not being true to yourself and him, the thing between the two of you might have just go worse and worse and worse. so, sebelum benda jadi makin teruk, seek for His help, terus terang and settle dengan baik.
- His guides (Al-Quran & As-Sunnah)
i’ll update more later after i figure out the other 9 items.
Version #1 was :
- do not talk to me after i wake up from my sleep unless i talk to you first
- i rather stay at home than going out
- i rather going out or go around the mall alone
- i love vanilla and mint ice-creams
- i love teh-o-ais
- i wish to go and hang out with my friends easily
- i am hot-tempered girl especially to the one who is closed to me
- i am a food lover
- i do not know how to cook except for instant noodle and rice
- i love branded jeans, trousers and shoes (other than those like slippers, tops etc, i don’t mind not getting branded ones.
Version #2 :
- i can’t really take jokes
- i have a few different characters (it depends on who’s around me at that moment)
- i know how to cook now :)
- i still love branded shoes and jeans
- and of course, i am still a food lover (but no vege/onion/garlic)
- besides vanilla and mint ice-creams now, bubblegum flavor is my favorite as well!
- i’m always late for classes
- mok jodoh macam jung yonghwa or mario maurer. pui!
- i love to plan trips and to travelling
- i prefer roller coasters than any other things in the theme park
almost 2 years ago, i’ve wrote a list of ‘10 things i love’ which were :
- my acer aspire 4740 (the laptop)
- my nokia n86
- my baby nikey - purple mercurial shoe
- my purse
- beach & waterfall
- berjaya times square (the shopping mall)
let’s see if there is any difference to my second version of ‘10 things I love’ :)
seriously, it took me awhile to think of what are the 10 things that I love now. but. i’ll try.
- manchester united
- jill mansell’s books
- delicious food (whipped cream, apple juice from morrison & rubicon guanabana juice etc)
- my purple satchel bag
- my stationeries (pilot mechanical pencil, ruler, blue faber-castell pens, rubber, liquid paper, M&G pens)
whipped cream apple juice from morrison & rubicon guanabana juice
- beautiful hijabs
- being single and near to Him
- movies (genre: comedy, love, romantic)
- korean shows and dramas
hey you! i miss youuuu! take care budak kecik! :P
i guess i miss you too? :)
*this picture was not taken tonight*
Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh! :D
Huwargh! It’s been a while since I last update my tumblr. Lol. Using the same words every time I’m updating my tumblr. -_- Actually, I’m quite confused whether to use BM Sarawak or BM Semenanjung. Or perhaps BM baku? Well maybe just BR. Baskin Robbins? Nayyyy. It’s Bahasa Rojak.
HA! Mau update apa ni, Ummi Khalthom Usaini?
1. Know what, byk org spell my name wrongly. Sedeh. If u guys don’t know how to spell “Khalthom”, why bother writing it? Tulis Ummi sudey. -_-“
2. I’ve finished my Measurement Lab! Yeay! This week I’m free for two days! Woohoo! But next week start Synthesis Lab. Mannnnn. No more lab manual this time. But hopefully Allah will ease everything, insyaAllah. Lu baru second year der.
3. Yesterday was a long day. Woke up at 6am and went out from the house at 7am to the university. And went back home around 9pm something.
Why? Sebab ada Manchester Intellectual Debate Competition. And I was the co-ordinator. So yea. Like that lah. A few drama happened in the morning, but Alhamdulillah settled. Though banyak la juak sik on time. I guess for every round, one hour and half time given was not enough. Sepatutnya berik masa duak jam oh?
So, who won? For English debate, HafizAlynAzzeem team won! YEAY! Mancunions yow! While for Malay debate, the Warwick team won. Tahniah tahniah!
4. I feel sad that I didn’t manage to watch ManUtd vs Norwich live at Old Trafford. It was a great match. Rooney’s goal was epic! Oh nevermind. You’ll be going to the FA-cup semi final ManUtd vs Chelsea this week end la, yummiebiey!
5. Went to MCOT event today. The opening ceremony of Manchester Islamic Carnival (MIC) 2013 which will be held from today, 3rd March until 17th March insyaAllah. May Allah SWT gives His barakah for each events of MIC. Amin.
So ada apa dengan opening ceremony MIC ni? Ha! Ada “A date with Sham Kamikaze” uuuuu! Heheh. Bukti?
Siap dapat signature oh! :D
Actually, I’m not a great fan of him. But, I couldn’t deny that his talk was good. Indeed it was a great one. To the fact that he managed to make me cry. If only if, I was in my own room at that moment, I might have cry a river. Well, agak teruk la jugak I cried just now. People must be curious why did I cry, right? Heheh.
I won’t tell u guys! If nak tau, haaaa! Contact I okay. Amboi. Hang pemes sangat ka ummi sampai orang nak contact hang tanya pasaipa hang menangeh(?? menangis.)??
K fine I know I’m not.
If any of u have read my instagram/fb caption on this picture, some of you might have been wondering apa benda yang Sham Kamikaze and I have something in common, right?
K. Lemme tell u the stories.
Most of u know that I’ve just started to wear hijab, right? As of now, it has been 63 days since I started to wear hijab. Alhamdulillah. I’m glad on the fact that I am now wearing hijab because of Him. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.
OK. So, apa kaitan dengan Sham Kamikaze?
Just now he told us his story on how he changed from Jebon to Alhamdulillah, finally a human. Heheh. The story was quite long. I’ll just skip the front part and goes straight to the part he met Sheikh Sudais at one of the masjid in Kangar on his second day of the journey ‘jalan-jalan cari masjid’ with his friend.
So have you met Sheikh Sudais as well? Wait. Who is Sheikh Sudais????? o.O
Eeee! Google eh! Semua benda nak dipadah. But of course, Sheikh Sudais is a great man. And famous as well.
Kk. Sambung cerita.
After he met Sheikh Sudais, he called his mom.
“Ibu. Sham jumpa Sheikh Sudais.” blablabla.
And his mom respond was like “oh. okay. bagus lah. alhamdulillah.” (okay, tak ingat sebenarnya. tapi something like that lah.) dalam nada mendatar.
So, Sham macam pelik lah. When he met a good person, his mom didn’t say anything. When he’s meeting the Jebons pun, his mom didn’t say anything jugak. Jadi satu persoalan la pulak.
So he went back home and after a week I think (and at that moment Sham has changed to a better one, Alhamdulillah. You guys might have think it was too fast, but if Allah dah turunkan hidayah-Nya kepada orang yang Dia kehendaki, nothing is impossible!), he went to his parents’ house. Then he asked his mom, “Ibu, kenapa hari tu time Sham call cakap jumpa Sheikh Sudais ibu mcm x happy je.”
Okay. This part I started to cry. Like a lot. A lot eh! Nang banyak! -_-
Mmmm. I don’t really remember la. I think his mom said something like this, “Bukan ibu tak happy. Tapi ibu happy sangat. Akhirnya, DOA IBU TERMAKBUL”
I’ll stop Sham’s story here.
6. My ibu did say something like that to me as well when I finally started to wear hijab.
Okay. How do I say this.
Mmm. Alhamdulillah. Allah turunkan His hidayah to me. I know, I’m one of the luckiest person on the earth. I’m the chosen one! But this hidayah, it did not come at one go for me. It came slowly. Macam mana?
He kurniakan me family yang penyabar.
He kurniakan me seorang ayah yang selalu suruh anak dia keluar pakai tudung.
He kurniakan me seorang ibu yang non-stop pesan “pake tudung gik, sayang”.
He kurniakan me dengan rakan-rakan yang very helpful, baik, always remind me to do good things, and didn’t judge me for who I am.
And all things I’m going to say below, it happened in a month.
He made me think, why do I said I believe in Him but ingkar arahan2-Nya?
He made me felt like buying scarfs and I did buy them.
He made me felt like wearing the scarfs when go out to the library or city sometimes, and I did.
And when I did wear hijab, wowwwww. That feeling of wearing hijab is indescribable. I feel very calm, stronger, and safe. And I feel loved as well. And. Susah la nak describe. Senang cerita, there’s always this one good feeling when wearing hijab.
So when I decided to wear hijab permanently, (I never said this before to the others. oh, maybe i did tell shahkang. -_-) sumpah I terharu dengan respond semua orang. Everyone was so happy!
Kak Aina and Kak Iman siap hantar donut for me. :’)
“HAVE YOU EVER WONDER HOW YOUR GOOD DECISION CAN AFFECT OTHERS HAPPINESS? SOMEHOW SEEING YOU NOW BRINGS ME LOTSSSS OF HAPPINESS, AND STRENGTH AT THE SAME TIME IN BECOMING A BETTER MUSLIMAH MYSELF. MAY ALLAH EASES YOU IN EVERYTHING YOU DO, LOVE :D” -Kak Aina.
Terharu gila baca that card from Kak Aina.
Everyone said tahniah to me. :’) Husni siap whatsapp haaa! Hahah. And shahkang pun kata he’s one of the happiest person seeing me wearing hijab now. And I’m pretty sure weetwoot+zareen antara makhluk yang paling gembira jugak.
I’m very glad that I’m surrounded by these good people. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. What more can I ask from you, ya Allah?
Maybe good results and a right life-partner? Lol ummi. Lol. Manusia memang tamak. -_-“
Kayyy. Some of u, maybe masih tak faham kenapa I menangis time Sham cerita part ibu dia tu. Salah satu rahmat yang Allah turunkan kepada kita dekat dunia ni adalah kasih sayang ibu. Of course, seorang ibu akan senantiasa mendoakan yang terbaik untuk anak-anaknya di dunia mahupun di akhirat kelak.
So, agak2 apa eh parents kita rasa bila dia tengok anak2 diorang bergelumang dengan dosa and maksiat? Happy? Lol. That is not funny. Of course they’ll feel sad!
And agak2 apa parents kita rasa if dia tengok anak2 dia senantiasa mendekatkan diri dengan Allah SWT? This one mesti lah happy and proud la kan. And seeing them happy are one of the best things to see ever! Apatah making them feel proud!
Apa lagi? Jom aahh. Let’s start wearing hijab! And you’ll understand the indescribable feelings! ;) It feels good! I swear!
*this is too long. and i’m lazy to type dah*
Among all the matches you've watched in Old Trafford, which is the best? Why?
the one i went alone i guess. FA CUP Replay Round 3 - United vs West Ham. actually tak igt sgt the matches before this. but i think that match was the best match ‘cause i think united perform gila despite having only 1 goal and and rooney missed the penalty. oh well. i bet everyone has expected rooney to miss that i guess. hahaha.
grab a cottage wrap and teman me do my proposal pweasheeee :)
hahahah. boleh3! i’ll teman youuu.
cantek ktk pake tudong:) keep up the good work ummi!may Allah bless you
thank you. :)